"I think the hardest part of losing a dog you love isn't having to say goodbye...it's the way your entire world changes without them and the emptiness that's left in your heart when they go".
Nikki Freeze - March, 2006 - October 12, 2018
"Because even a moment of your love is worth years of pain later."Friday, October 12th, my heart shattered to pieces as Bob and I watched over Nikki, my beautiful German Shepherd, as she crossed the Rainbow Bridge. I thought that was going to be the hardest part, but I was very naive'. The act of coming home held more daggers for our hearts as we drove down Reed Road. I can't remember ever having lost a dog that has ever caused me this much pain.
The parable, "The Little Orange Boy - Choosing Tears", told us we would always suffer their loss, but we seem to forget that pain - until we lose another pet.
We adopted Nikki in September, 2006 from Diana's Grove, just after moving to Licking, MO. According to the best information they had, she had been born in March, 2006 and had pretty much been tied to a tree outside for the first 6 months of her life - she weighed less than 40 lbs - severely underweight for her age and breed. When we first met her, we took her for a walk and it was the first time she had been on a leash. She couldn't get far enough away from us as she strained and pulled against it. We brought her home that day and, after taking her for another walk, we took her in the house and she found the farthest corner in the back of the house and curled up and stayed there.
|Nikki - her first day home. 6 months old|
|Nikki with her Dad, first day home. 6 months old|
|Nikki - 8 months with her favorite toy, "Patch".|
|Nikki - 8 months - she loved her crate....and Patch.|
|Nikki - 8 months - oh those ears!|
Once we had her on a good quality dog food, she became more energetic, bigger and stronger and we walked for miles - across the fields, up and down the dirt roads, even all the streets in the City of Licking. There isn't a field or road around this area that we haven't walked. I took her to a few training classes as she gained more confidence and she was a quick learner. She learned to stay, wait, down, sit, stand, heel and eventually, we taught her to sing and play hide-and-seek.
|Nikki - 10 months - training at her CGC class. She was more interested in making friends than she was in learning to sit.|
If there was ever a dog that loved fall & winter, it was Nikki. We taught her to play and man, could that dog fly when catching a ball. We loved her and she fiercely loved us for over 12 years. But now she's gone and I want to know, I really want to know how many tears does it take to stop this aching pain that is tearing our hearts apart when we recall our memories of Nikki?
|Nikki - ~7 months - strong, young and energetic.|
|Nikki - 8 months|
|Nikki - 9 months & challenging me for the Queen position. She finally settled for "Princess".|
|Nikki - 15 months We moved into our newly-built home in Feb., 2007 and after sniffing out all the rooms, she decided she still liked our bed the best.|
|Nikki - 15 months|
Please, someone tell me, how many tears will it take to wash away the pain, deep in my heart when I look around our living room and she's not there?
|Nikki - 17 months. Hanging out with Mom & Dad - you could always tell when you got the 'look' when someone was hungry.|
|Nikki - 28 months - She was an explorer and always, always energetic, so we had to exercise her a lot.|
|Nikki - 5 years, 6 months - By the age of 5 1/2, she had bulked up and weighed in around 90 lbs. It was probably due to all the popcorn and treats. Popcorn was her favorite treat.|
|Nikki & Mom - 5 years, 6 months|
|Nikki - 5 years 9 months|
|Nikki - 7 years, 5 months - Our own doggie stair master - to help her lose some weight (she was up to 95 lbs.), we tossed her favorite toys downstairs. Sometimes, I had to go get it when she got tired. :)|
|Nikki - 7 years & 9 months. Bob used to tell me, my ponytail was swinging in time with Nikki's tail.|
|Nikki - 8 years, 6 months|
|Nikki - 8 years, 7 month|
|Nikki - 8 years, 7 months - She loved to walk with me and explore all the scents left in the forest. I could never let her off-leash though, because her nose would get her in trouble, and her recall was terrible.|
|Nikki - 9 years - she could hear anyone entering our driveway from 300 yards away.|
How many tears will it take to mend my heart next Spring when my martins return and you're not here to watch over them with me as we relax on the porch?
|Nikki - 10 years, 1 month - No matter where I was, she insisted on being there with me. Even if it meant sitting on the porch in 90 degree weather, she would lay there and enjoy all the different smells that wafted through the porch screens.|
|Nikki - July 7, 2018 - she started sleeping a lot more and we had to lay down more rugs on the hardwood and tile floors. If she slipped she was unable to get herself back up, unless we helped her.|
|Nikki - October 2, 2018 - one of her favorite places to lay while I was in the kitchen. It was the best spot in the house for being able to keep track of her humans.|
|Nikki - October 2, 2018 - along with her Mom & Dad, she no longer had any patience for the heat this summer and demanded to go back indoors after confirming the 90 deg. temps were really intolerable.|
|Nikki - October 4, 2018 - she always waited by the bedroom door for me in the mornings.|
You can remedy & medicate many ailments, but age is the one for which you can do nothing about.
There aren't enough tears that we can shed that will help us right now and I can hear every second on the clock as it slowly ticks by without her.
We miss our girl and love her so much. RIP, Princess Nikki Freeze - you created so many memories here and we will be missing you forever. But rest easy, knowing you are in our hearts always - we love you.